It’s been brought to my attention a few times recently that I often talk about positive happenings in my life with a bit of disbelief. I make these comments of disbelief most often after I’ve experienced a psychic growth spurt or have had a cool intuitive experience.
For example: I’ll be telling my partner about some amazing analogy my spirit guides gave me during meditation and I’ll end it with, “Isn’t that crazy?”
Now I realize that by making such a comment I’m actually negating what happened, not giving myself credit for having this spiritual connection, and delaying myself from getting to the next cool thing.
I used to drive my sports car on the racetrack at full speed, which required me to be extremely present. If, after steering my car perfectly through a turn, (the turns are the challenging parts of the race track), I had distracted myself with a comment like, “Wow! I can’t believe I just did that!” I might have run off the track.
Life is the same way: I must be alert and present for the next thing. Slowing down or halting to make a judgment only delays that next good thing from happening, or at very least distracts me from noticing its arrival.
It goes without saying that this same thing occurs when stopping to judge a not-so-good event. It keeps me in the event or circling around it. It’s sort of like making my way out of quicksand to slightly harder mud and choosing to look back at what I just escaped, instead of continuing to move forward to the safety of hard ground.
With this newfound knowledge, I’ve decided to monitor my verbiage.
So far I’ve caught myself many times, but the cool thing is, I feel a liberating release by merely acknowledging my judgment.
And, just in the last few days, I’ve even been catching myself in the small window of time before I review an event. It’s like I’m showing up right when my analytical side morphs into Siskel and Ebert preparing to screen a movie before giving their opinions.
I have a new procedure for when I catch the process at this early stage: I just stop the film and say, “Nope. A critique is not necessary at this time” and I send the movie critics home. This has allowed me to flow through my days and has given me more faith that things will turn out fine.
Just this morning I had an unpleasant experience with a rather shady auto repair place that resulted in me asking for my keys back and leaving without repairs. It was a great test for my new method.
The desire to review the event was so strong that I had to tell Siskel and Ebert several times to go home.
I stuck to my guns and assured myself that I really have no way of knowing how that event will affect my life. It might even turn out being a positive.
A few hours have passed since my morning experience and I’m happy to say I’ve remained calm enough to focus on the next thing.
I plan on continuing to be vigilant in monitoring my thoughts during and after events with the belief that eventually Siskel and Ebert will just stay home.