It’s a bit scary to write this, but I’m out of the psychic closet! I outed myself by announcing that I would be one of the psychics giving readings at the Big Psychic Fair this past weekend in Roswell, GA.
Oh… and I told my mother I’m a psychic. That was a biggie.
It was about 18 months ago when I met my wonderful partner Janet Raftis, a very skilled and experienced energy healer and intuitive. I was very intrigued by her talents and asked her all sorts of questions. As she explained her abilities, I remembered that I had experienced similar things.
After little more than a week of my constant questions she proclaimed that, “Of all the people I’ve known, you are the most psychic person who doesn’t know he’s psychic.” She gave names to my intuitive abilities: clairvoyance, clairaudience, clairsentience. She also helped me confirm that I’m an empath, a channel and a medium and explained how all of these talents function together. Most amazing of all, she valued these in me.
She valued my sensitivities!
This was a first. When I grew up, sensitivity in men was seen as a weakness and so I tried to disguise myself as being not so sensitive.
I spent a great deal of energy on this fear.
I always thought I was doing at least a half-ass job of acting like a regular guy, but what my friends probably saw was a sensitive, conflicted man who was overly hard on himself and too afraid to move forward with conviction.
It’s funny how fear creates our misperceptions of how others view us and causes a massive exaggeration of the importance of what others think about us.
So, right before I posted about participating in the Big Psychic Fair, I made the call to my mother. It went as expected. It was scary but nothing gigantic, just a step I had to make. It turns out she’s been to the Big Psychic Fair with her friends before. I invited her to come but she was going out of town. That was the call. It was rather uneventful, making it clear that all of that fear was unnecessary.
I immediately posted my flyer for the fair and, as I made these final two steps, I realized I had already stepped into my growth, into my expanded self.
The next day, after looking at Facebook, I realized that I’m now putting it all out there. Every aspect of me: father, partner, brother, son, photographer, musician, and now, a sensitive psychic.
I’m still a bit fearful as I write this, but I AM a sensitive man. That’s who I am.